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May. 13th, 2005 08:13 pmSo.
After two years, my boyfriend is leaving me.
We've finally come to the fork in the road where my desire to have a child and his desire not to be a parent again diverge. I would like the option of having a child available to me should I decide to do it. I understand his point of view; he has two adult children and he does not want to be a father again.
However, I cannot imagine seeing him in the kind of pain I'm in right now and not do anything within my power to stop it.
We've been going back and forth on this issue for a few months now, and I honestly thought his need to be with me would overcome his reticence about having another child.
It seems that I overestimated my appeal.
I want to crawl into my bed and never come out ever again.
After two years, my boyfriend is leaving me.
We've finally come to the fork in the road where my desire to have a child and his desire not to be a parent again diverge. I would like the option of having a child available to me should I decide to do it. I understand his point of view; he has two adult children and he does not want to be a father again.
However, I cannot imagine seeing him in the kind of pain I'm in right now and not do anything within my power to stop it.
We've been going back and forth on this issue for a few months now, and I honestly thought his need to be with me would overcome his reticence about having another child.
It seems that I overestimated my appeal.
I want to crawl into my bed and never come out ever again.
