flashback 1998
Jul. 27th, 2002 07:09 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
crankylexWhile flipping through the channels (digital cable, a zillion channels, and not a freaking thing on), I caught the end of "Amends", the S3 Christmas ep.
What about me? I love you so much... And I tried to make you go away... I killed you and it didn't help.
And I hate it! I hate that it's *so* hard... and that you can hurt me *so* much. (sobs, then harshly) I know everything that you did, because you did it to me. Oh, God! I wish that I wished you dead. I don't. (whispers) I can't.
I miss them. I miss the way they made me feel.
Most days I don't even think about it, but then I see something like this and my heart literally aches and I feel silly for feeling like that over a tv show, but there it is.
What about me? I love you so much... And I tried to make you go away... I killed you and it didn't help.
And I hate it! I hate that it's *so* hard... and that you can hurt me *so* much. (sobs, then harshly) I know everything that you did, because you did it to me. Oh, God! I wish that I wished you dead. I don't. (whispers) I can't.
I miss them. I miss the way they made me feel.
Most days I don't even think about it, but then I see something like this and my heart literally aches and I feel silly for feeling like that over a tv show, but there it is.
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Date: 2002-07-27 04:12 pm (UTC)I'm in your silly boat.